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So i woke up, downed 2 cans of mountain dew, and started talking to myself in the darkness. |
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I have this interesting little experiance every time i get high which i think explains an interesting mechanic behind memory.
I have been able to communicate a little bit of memory to my sober self and although i cant be absolutely sure that my memory is correct in this i think this is how it has worked. When i am high i come to the realization that something i just figured out, from scratch, i had figured out, from scratch, in a previous high, or at another time, but forgot that i A. figured it out, B. remebered it, and C. remembered that i had previously figured it out or remebered it. This is describing a mechanic of memory i realized when high. In example it would work like this. Some insignifigant bit of logic comes across my mind when high, and during that time the full meaning and impact of some irony or signifigance of that memory comes to light for a very short time. Then i experiance a little deja vu. I figured out that that is because at some previous time i had experianced the same path of insignifigant logic, and passed through it without experiancing that moment of clarity about its irony or signifigance. The importance which i remeber is that it is the EXACT same path of logic, feeling, and analysis. I come to the realization that i have previously realized that i had realized something previously. And i have done this each time previously from scratch, meaning a random thought. So i have a random thought like, "If the first two humans were adam and eve, for there to be more than 3 humans around, unless all of our mothers are infact eve, there would need to be a lot of incest." - "Meaning that society's concept of incest being socially unacceptable is not supported by their mythology." I would then pass it out of my mind as an interesting little quirk about religion and forget it. Then when i am high i will randomly be thinking and then the thought will occur to me, "If the first two humans were adam and eve, for there to be more than 3 humans around, unless all of our mothers are infact eve, there would need to be a lot of incest. Meaning that society's concept of incest being socially unacceptable is not supported by their mythology." Then i will feel like i have thought that thought before and realize that i have, and not at any important or relevant time but at an entirely random and inconsequential time. Nonetheless it was a completely random and original(in inspiration) thought. I also remember feelings and other sensations associated with that random memory which inspired deja vu. I think that that particular memory was felt when i was driving, so i vaguely remeber the image of the street i was on, and the sound of the car, ect. I also remember that i had had the exact same path of logic countless times before and they passed through my mind just as easily and inconsequentially. I think the human mind is constructed from a huge cache of previously constructed memories and memory phrases. Any thought which occurs is constructed using previous memories. And all logic which occurs is constructed by smaller bits of logic which had previously been figured. Anything said is said because it was part of a previous and similiar experiance. Your basis for saying something comes from a memory where that "said thing(out loud, or you heard it)" had occured. I think that when you say something, for your own purposes, you extracted that saying from a larger saying that you previously heard. And that more complex sayings are constructed from a combinations of sayings respective to their own similiar relevant sayings. You had heard previously, "You can make sure of the quality of your beef by sticking your head up a cows ass, but wouldn't you rather take the butchers word for it?" And you can take from that saying, "wouldn't you rather take the .....'s word for it?" and construct future sentances based on that combination of words representing that complete idea. You would use that sentance and similiar variations of that sentance when you judged that the idea you were trying to communicate was the same as the feeling you felt communicated to you when you heard the original sentance piece. Most sentances are combinations of several instances of that phenomenon. Sets of words sound appropriate when the feelings conveyed to you when you heard them match the message you are trying to convey to the reader(for example). This can be one word to whole paragraphs. The feeling of it sounding appropriate is the feeling of you associating the word phrases with their implied meaning that you learned existed when you (consciously or otherwise) commited the word phrase to memory. You at one time commited the word phrase "the dog" and its implied meaning to memory. {'the dog' and 'dog' are different in their implied meaning but share part of the implied meaning.] You also once commited the word "see" and several of its possible implied meanings to memory. {You more than likely have associated the word see to several tenses of the word, have seen, saw, i am seeing, ect} You also once commited the word "run" and its implied meaning to memory. You also very likely commited the word phase "see the dog run" to memory. When you want to convey the message, "see the dog run" you associate all parts of that message: see, the dog, and run; and their respective implied meanings and create the message from all of those words and word phrases. Meaning that had you never heard the phrase, "see the dog run" but you have heard "see", "the dog", and "run", and you had heard each one of those words in a context which explains their usage, then you could construct the message, "see the dog run" and it would sound appropriate because each fragment of the word phrase matched the context of their respective, native, and originally derived usage. Incase you are wondering, i am not trying to sound smart. If i am using over-complex dictation it is probabally because i have unwittingly discovered something very simple and i didn't realize it. I don't know. What i write just sounds right. |