The Graveyard
Abandon hope all ye who enter he-err wait...
Here's the exit.

When the hell did they install an exit?



9/20/06
I've taken out the quiz section because I don't want to keep it updated. I am thinking about updating the cute pictures section, but currently I have no new rant for you to read. I was pushed to update out of embarassment of having not updated in forever. Some of my old rants are a little embarassing at this point too. But I'm not going to take them down. When I was younger all the adults talked about how stupid they were as children and how they thought that they knew everything as children, and how crazy they thought their thoughts when they were 10 years younger were. And I was the only one who said that I knew I was gonna think totally differently in 10 years, and I was going to respect that my thoughts that i had 10 years earlier were totally understandable at the time, and thus far I have not gone back on that promise to myself.

So out of respect for the Me that I was at the time I wrote those rants that is dead and gone, I will let them stay. But I must say that I am not necessarily the Me that I was when I wrote them. I am not even the Me that I was when I went to sleep last night, he is dead as well. But how that works exactly is a little beyond the depth of this post.

1/7/05
Well as you can probabally tell project mesa blew over, and thank god. After spending months describing myself to my therapist, i now see that writing it down would be far too tedious for my tastes. Although i might do it anyway. Well, i am posting because i have something for you to read. It is the first chapter in the chronicles of Lance. Don't worry, this is only the start, and i do have other bits and pieces written, but nothing proofed and made presentable. This isn't even presentable, and i will make future versions, so nothing is set in stone yet.
The chronicles of lance is something i made up to mock paladins of D&D-esc stories, and thus far it has been pretty fun doing that. And pretty funny too. This is a short chapter, but at least it is a start.

4/21/04
The purpose of my site is that it gives me a kind of satisfaction that myself is up for everyone to see. My website is me. Every page describes my body. Every word describes my mind. And while it is a baby now, eventually i see that it will grow into the gigantic senselessness that is my entire being. The site is like introspection on paper, electronic paper viewed online. First the most obvious things stand out. Then less obvious parts of myself come into being. I shall piece together my website like an animal piecing together their home using bits of human waste and their own saliva or body liquids. I shall construct a huge, incomprehensibile mental collage of thoughts. And in doing so, i shall make myself immortal.

I am not entirely sure how i am going to do this but i am moreso sure that by taking very small steps and dabbing a bit here and adding a bit there that something of amazing proportions shall be created on these pages. Maybe it will be pretty when i am mostly satisfied with it.

12/15/03
Well, time and time again i've tried writing a fanfic, and i always fail. Now this fanfic is probabally no gem, but it's done. I think you'll enjoy it, especially the SI i put in. I think you'll all love the SI.

12/14/03
I made a short webpage specifically for the purpose of constructing characters for an RPG i want to run with my friends.
Here it is.

11/10/03
Alright, so late in the evening/morning i was at a completely stagnant point. I didn't want to play infantry, i didn't want to play any game, i didn't want to draw, or do math, i didn't even want to write. So i did. I wrote and i wrote something so weird that even i dont know what i could possibly have been smoking. And i wasn't smoking anything O_o.
Well, I spent a long time writing it, and a long time turning it into HTML(mostly br's) and here it is for your strange reading pleasure.
BTW, i hardly remeber what i wrote so there may very well be horrible things in there, as well as incredibly insightful things, lemme know, i'll read it later. Right now it is time to pass out.
Cya ^_^

11/07/03
I have been thinking about this writing as often and as randomly as described in the writing and since i was all hopped up on caffine after a pleasent days nap i decided to bring it to words. I think i figured out an aspect to the workings of the human mind.
And currently i've been interested in applying this to A.I. studies, although like always i'll probabally just give up as i realize i may have discovered a hunk of puzzle pieces but we dont even have all the edge pieces in place yet.
Enjoy ^_^

9/28/03
No rant today, however i am making an update to the cute pictures section. This update is dedicated to someone, who will remain nameless, but showed particular interest in me adding new cute pictures.
^_^

9/25/03
I consider paragraphs to be things whose only function is making a text easier to read. I personally make a paragraph when my mind takes a deep breath. When my mind feels that the text written sufficiantly expresses the point i want to make. Nothing beyond that. If the author wants to organize their work to make it even prettier, it is up to their personal skills as a writer. I think it is rediculous that english teachers should teach a standardized way of organized paragraphs. It adds a level of difficulty to writing that shouldnt be present if it isn't needed and limits what you can do when you want to put your own creativity into it how YOU choose. I always thought that this was too small a thing to deserve its own rant but i guess later i will write one. That is not what this rant is about however. I only mentioned it because this rant was so big that i had to split it up into paragraphs. Have fun. I wanna go to bed. It's like 4 am.

9/17/03
A long time ago i started writing my position on drugs but i didn't finish it. So here is the complete version, ready for your disdainful pleasure. Please send my page to people you know will be offended by my views. Maybe they will mob up and kill me. Ahhh sweet, sweet, vindicating death.

9/16/03
Yesterday was my birthday. I am already at that point in my life when i do not really celebrate my birthday. I enjoy sleeping alot more than throwing a big expensive birthday party. And any junk food i would normally have the privilege of eating on that occasion i can buy when ever i please. I usually get money from relatives on birthdays regardless of my actions. I act like i appreciate it, and i do. However very little. As a child of the late 20th and 21st century, living in america in the middle class i take money for granted. And i know that i shouldn't but i do. I thank them out of guilt. My lips have not known the sweet taste of unconditional selfless acts for years. That is what my rant today is about.
Secondly, im learning to draw. If i get good enough at it i might start a web comic. And unlike every other thing ive tried to pick up like a good diet and excersize, i may actually pull off this drawing thing. Because i seem to have some kind of natural aptitude for it and im really enjoying it. So one day you may recieve bitter, cynical messages through the pains of some innocent web comic character. ^_^

8/20/03
This is one premise on which my outlook on the world is based. One of the most basic, maybe not the only one. I will explain later in other rants. This one describes an ethical idea. Another, later, might be about the level that i think all humans become the same metaphysically.

8/9/03
Okay, so i went on vacation last week and it was good. There was lots of food, which i ate. And there was the ocean, one really good tide and then a bunch of days with weird weather which i had decided i really liked. While i was there i worked out some items for my utopia and this is my first installment. I hope it pisses off a good number of people. Later when i explain the other components of my utopia i will update it, maybe add a subpage or sompin. Also i added the last post to the old posts page. God, i hope it worked.

7/15/03
Alright. This is my first new version of the site. When i was on benadryl i got it in my head to learn how to do this, and because the site was getting really long and i had to learn this tricky aspect of tables sooner or later. Also i will now be using the month/day/year form of dates. I think i saw day/month/year somewhere else and it just stuck. This confused me and others a few times and well, i like month/day/year better. From now on, until i forget or fuck up, the site will be the title, disclaimer, new post(like this one), the cute pictures(which i will try to add more), the email adress(which is changing), and a link to all previous posts somewhere in there. Finally i update the quizes i took since i last posted. So alot of stuff is happening.

Okay, i just completed the page. I was writing about the page in forespect earlier. I think it looks good. I might even think about putting a background in.

7/9/03
One of these days i WILL make a little contents page on the side of the updates, cause i have added something new that is not just an update for a new rant. Quizes. I like taking little quizes like this one. I will gradually add new quizes i took but for now, this is the only one i have. I'm perfect...?

7/8/03
I am still working on that introspective crap but something that just occured to me, something which i strongly felt i should write about, struck me. And i wrote about it. And here it is = Perversion. It's one of the aspects of my beliefs which would make the world a better place to live in. But will never, ever happen. God? Please give me the power and legal immunity! Oh please!

7/6/03
Well im going to figure out how to make a little selection of rants on the side. 'Cause my site is actually getting too long for comfort. On another note i am working on something about me, something about something. Whatever it is i am actually working on, it is profound, yet i delay because it is difficult to understand. Understanding yourself is difficult and complicated, and the information you get from yourself and your subconscious takes time to understand, so i cant just sit and write down a coherent lecture about it, my mind is not giving up that information that simply. But until then, here is a funny picture which i swear isnt doctored. I would like to know how it got that way too.

6/25/03
Well, this writing is not the most mature thing i've ever written but i think i handled it marvelously well for the subject matter. It came about when i sat down to eat my lunch and reflecting on that what i was eating was more than likely going to cost me the tortures of the damned i mused to myself what that armagedon would look like from the inside when all the funtions were personified. This is an example of the daily weird thoughts which amuse me and cause me to start laughing for apparently no reason. So when i say Digestive Emergancy, I am seriously having one and i don't mean it is just that i really need to go.

6/11/03
Just a small note, i've updated my writings on Homosexuality to include 2 pictures which help prove my point. However i couldn't find a good picture of tom cruise which really shouts out the point.

6/10/03
Well there was this breif problem i had with me and another person but that now has been resolved. I dont want to talk about it right now but i will tell you that because of our problem i was inspired to write something. This person is blatantly homophobic, he knows he is and doesnt want to change. Well, i didnt say the things to him that i would have liked to say. I was actually so shocked at the time that i could not give him the 40 minute rant that i wanted to give him afterwards. Here are my words on the homosexual thing. Please send this page to your homophobic friends, so that i may inspire an unruly mob to come and kill me.

6/9/03
After being pissed off i found something to write about. It is on the subject of love. It is not on the subject of my love, or my love life. Maybe i will write about that later but right now i just want to crush the idea that love is some abstract power out there that is extremely powerful and omnipotent. Mango. Manga. Mango. Manga.

5/30/03
I finished watching some slayers, which i really liked, and then thought about the Lord of Nightmares some and i finally decided who would win, Goku or Lina. I have my answer here. On another note, i will be getting into paintball. Whether i like it or not i already spent the money so when the stuff gets here i am going to enjoy it god damn it.

5/27/03
Okay, i was sitting in my chair, drinking some orange juice and thinking about ways to get more tentacle porn when the idea struck me. God doesn't have a birthday. I thought it was unfair for God to not have a birthday, so now. God's birthday is May 11th. I think god would like that. No writing to read this time i just thought i should let you know, God's birthday is May 11th and you may want to celebrate it. ^_^

5/26/03
I could write about lot of things now, but they're kind of short rants. Things that piss me off. But nobody ever said that each of these updates had to be full fucking essays so i've decided to put up a short rant on War.

5/16/03
Okay, so now im gonna describe exactly how much i value Human Life. Now i hope to be getting into deeper topics, i enjoy talking about them. It's 3 am right now and i'm going to go take a nap. I hope i'm pissing someone off. Maybe they'll kill me and i can be justified that i died due to someone's petty hatred of weird ideas. I am so bitter i make raw coffee bean look like skittles.

Also, incase shang wonders where i am, and thinks to check the site, i am in chicago at a mass anime nerd convention. Be back monday. ^_^

5/11/03
ASK! DAMN IT! ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS-KUH! ASK! NOT AXE! JESUS FUCKING CHRIST! whew. Okay, i wrote something about our famous little word Nigger. But before then a good bit about my opinions on how language is perceived and censorship. I will probably write about this more later. We're gonna get into more and more fun stuff as i go on, issues like abortion, and what i want to do to the world.
>=D
If your wondering what has inspired this, i should tell you a little about my school. I go to a school that is about 70 to 85% black, and while i have no problem with this i am constantly hearing AKS and other Ebonics and well, i would rather chew off my leg than listen to that shit. Listening to them read in English class is cruel and unsual punishment, i swear. Not that there aren't those blacks that CAN ANNUNCIATE, but it seems i am cursed with a full english class with ones who CANT!!

5/6/03
Okay so i made my little paper about evolution specifically for a friend of mine who had debated with me about how evolution worked last week. After giving him the link he was unhappy that i would bring that back up and continue arguing, so after reading my complete and wonderful paper on evolution he and i debated for roughly 2 and 1/2 hours. Good fucking god that was a long long long debate. I maintain that I could be wrong, just as much as the possiblity that i could be right. But then again i kind of think that we were both saying the same thing, but in different ways. Oh well i don' want to think about it anymore tonight. I encourage people who know this better than either me or him to email me and make me look like a fool explaining to me EXACTLY how evolution works. So to have bitching material to work with i have for you the whole damn debate here on An aim chatlog. Now it is time for Pez. Rest and Pez.

5/5/03
I decided that my rant on infantry was far too long for people patience when I am refering them to it for an explaination on the Infil Code, so i decided to make a page dedicated to it. Maybe later i'll figure out how to make links that send you to a specific spot on an already existing page. But for now, here is The Infil Code and why it makes sense.
Secondy, i meant this website to contain more than just long writtings about games you've probably never played and never plan to play. I also planned to put my beliefs about life the universe and everything up for people to read. Now before i start really getting into the fun things ive thought of i would like to make a small explaination to how the Theory of Evolution really works. Because to understand the problem with safety and stupid people you need to understand how evolution really works. So enjoy Nature's Work.

5/4/03
Lately i have been trying to figure out how to use tables to make the site look just a pinch prettier and apparently it has worked. The tables part at least. Also i have been arguing and bitching about Infantry, a game i play for the last, i don't know, 4 years. I have seen so many things on that game, and learning so many stupid, pointless, trivial things that my mind is too full and it need to spill onto this site. So here is My Rant On Infantry.
Im happy with what im learning about HTML, maybe later the site will be more than just a ton of words.

5/3/03
So i was arguing with Falcon sometime within the last couple of days. Don't remeber exactly when... it's fuzzy. When i got done arguing with him, no progress made, little agreed upon, and at least my general level of pisitvity 20 knots higher i decided to write something that i have been observing for a long time, yet it seemed that no one ever thought to talk about it. Well as my first addition to my Website i give you, 6 Ways to Compare Fiction. This can be used to compare anything from Star Trek to The Holy Hand Grenade of Antioch to The Giga Slave. Maybe someone already did something like this. Maybe someone will use this to make a better way to compare things. Either way i wrote it. Now i need to go buy more Mountain Dew, because i'm now 100% dry.
Secondly, i decided just for the hell of it i would calculate how, to scale, much larger a Death Star is than a Borg cube. I found out that if i wanted to make a picture using a borg cube that took up even 1 pixel of space in a MS paint program, a Death star would take up more space than my 2 gigs of Ram can handle. So instead i made a picture comparing the LENGTH of a Death Star to the length of a Borg cube, which i think is flattering to the Empire enough anyhow. Right click and save as, it's too big to view - 14MB.

5/1/03
Well, I figured that I should make an opening statement. That statement could be a long and deep speech that inspires questions of the very human soul. Or it could be, “Hi.” Well in this case it is the latter.

Hi.

Now that the opening statement is out of the way I can tell you that I am a hapless techno weenie who knows more about the average air-speed velocity of an unladen swallow than Html. So were gonna do the looking good and working well thing gradually.
This website, when it has matured further, shall contain my opinions on whatever I feel like, rants; anything that I feel would be interesting or thought provoking, and any other crap I happen to decide to waste your time with.
Why did I make this website? Because there are so many things I think about and so little time to explain them all. Also here I am free to say what ever I like. This is a VERY necessary thing. So any of you who have trouble with words like fuck, I would recommend that you visit softer websites such as www.disney.com. If you don’t want to think about anything controversial please relocate your modem to the trash and bother me no more. If you don’t want to see “Adult” themes please die or move to another planet. If you cannot handle hearing that god may be a pedophile, never read or talk about the Catholic Church again. If you want to bitch at me, please do, I would love to hear about it.
I have thought of so many interesting little bits that fall on deaf ears and are wasted on teachers whose only concern is that I learn how to use a semi-colon. Now I shall express my ideas in a place that may actually hear my call. Or be just as ignored. Either way at least you can READ this crap.
Well, I will add things gradually as I learn to do them. Right now however I know little, other than I am very happy that I can now express what I wish.


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